Bhagavan was once asked "What are the sadhanas (spiritual practices) for transformation."
He replied that this sadhana we call the no sadhana.
We taught it like this in some of the yajnas and workshops:
You could say there are two beings within. One is authentic and the other not so much authentic. A man you do not like knocks at your door. The one who is authentic says, "I don't like you. Don't come in."
The other says, "Good to see you. Where have you been, my friend, come on in! How great you look!"
If you look deeper into it there is a third being of sorts who sees the whole thing. He makes no comment as to whether you are to be authentic or inauthentic. He just witnesses the whole thing.
Now this witness can be created in just 21 days with just a little effort. This seeing sadhana can give so much bliss and joy that we call it the no sadhana sadhana.
You will have learned to just watch all the comments, ego, anger, selfishness etc in your mind without distorting it. Whatever is happening you are not disturbed. The content is not important. The question is how you perceive it. Can you perceive it in a neutral way without taking sides?
If just witnessing the dialogue is Ananda then the ceasing of the dialogue is Paramananda.
Just to drink a glass of water without the dialogue is Paramanada.
Tuesday, June 22, 2010
Wednesday, May 12, 2010
Every Reason to Worship
Since going to Satyaloka in 1998,1999, and 2000 I would have what could be considered Oneness or enlightenment experiences off and on. Once I was a Walmart in and it is almost better to be a Walmart than to be a woman (hard to describe) and I saw the entire Universe in a French Fry in the Wendy's in Morgantown WV., tried to drive home, could find no separation between myself and the mountain and wrecked the truck. It is not difficult to be one with the desert and see what was outside is now inside, eat or fly through a bird, experience the dog as an extension of the senses yet still there was suffering. It is just a way of shifting perception, getting the mind out of an evolving and building cycle that is easily duplicated.
I suspected at times much of it was thought or imagination and my best friend, Lisa, would call it "special effects" -yet in the experience there does not appear to be thought at all-just pure experience. The perception is you clearly are what you see. Actually it is generally some thought or idea that cuts the experience. There would be some great shifts in consciousness and then some low points. Through it all, the antaryamin has manifested internally and externally. The Supreme Friend. Even when the dog even turns away or looks at me in disgust, the Antaryamin has been there- my hero, my champion, my knight in shining armor, my lover, loving me even as I could not love truly love either him or myself.
Now some might suppose that someone is in a higher state than another because this awakening of antrayamin-this moving from belief to discovery- has occurred. I know very well first hand it is not the case. It is not that I stepped up to the antaryamin. It is that the antaryamin stepped down for me. And over and over and over-this stepping down. Such experience happens because it is necessary not because someone does something to deserve it. It is grace. I cannot say that I know God. All I can really say is if there is such a power his will is very strange. It is very evident that the awakening of the antaryamin is not the annihilation of suffering yet it's a huge part of the process-a part that keeps you from going insane- from putting a tire full of kerosene around your neck, lighting a match, and running around in the back yard until its all over. If you are truly, and I do mean truly, not superficially, going to strive to realize your condition and confront your self you are going to need one hell of a friend. Seek this awakening. It is a very simple way of seeing and then asking.
Over the last few years during and since returning from the 21 day process at the Golden City in 2006, there were two big insights that really helped me. One was that gratitude and suffering cannot coexist. I saw how little gratitude there is when there is suffering and in that seeing gratitude grew.
The most recent insight (before the mukti diksha) came about one night a year or so ago when I was weeping for a relative. I found out he was really suffering physically sometimes due to his situation and some not having enough to meet some physical needs. I was crying and crying and gasping to the point of almost vomiting. I had nothing material to give that would help long term and felt so helpless. I could have put a kitchen knife in my abdomen, and it would not have been as painful as this.
The suffering escalated even more and it was like there was a shift happening -a teetering -like when you are running a long time and are really hurting and ready to drop and every muscle is screaming and suddenly this shift comes and it's pleasure. I was right about there-crossed between thinking I would die from this agony and actually starting to feel pleasure, when suddenly the thought came: "You would feel better if you got something to eat. There is some Indian food in the freezer." Everything brightened for a minute. "Yes! I could eat and I will feel better!" and there was hope. I lost the experience.
Then the thought came, "Loser! You can't even suffer! "
I started to sob because I felt so sorry for myself that I could not even suffer. Then it was like a light went off - a crack like a gunshot. "I am suffering because I cannot suffer." The relief was unimaginable. Light came. It was an amazing state and I looked for suffering in the way you fiddle with you finger when you have taken off a ring that you had worn for many years. It just wasn't there. While the 20 deekshas I have received may have helped arrive at the insight it very much appeared it is insight and not deeksha that impacts the brain and burns out the circuits of suffering so to speak.
The state would come and go and it would sometimes take some time before the perception shifted. But it was like each suffering was a learning and the following state was better.
The first mukti deeksha webcast with Bhagavan on March 20th was staggering for some time. It was like the mind was busy bothering someone else and the state was very good. Thoughts were not arising. To see everything was automatic was a great annihilator of guilt and negative judgement. I could actually see this. Who can help anything? All was forgiven-even myself.
There was a feeling of expansion- like the eyes were somewhere the ears somewhere else it was like there was no relativity and a happiness about it. There was still a kind of feeling like I had been worrying about something but could not remember what I had been worrying about. It was like a bad dream was behind me and the past erased. Yet I knew the dream was there. Lurking. It was difficult to drive home.
I was doing the dishes the next morning and a soap bubble arose and hovered for a long time before my eyes as if daring me to look. I saw that I was like a piece of a whole for a moment that was enveloped for some time by a membrane. Then the bubble popped and the space inside it became indistinguishable from the air. Oneness.
All around me there were signs and glimpses of this. There was a rabbit that had been run over on the road and I saw how the rabbit was like the bubble. Is this life and death? Is it death to be the bubble or life to be the bubble? Both....
Would the rabbit find another form to live in or would it merge with the One and become indistinguishable like a drop of milk going into the ocean. Maybe it was more like sea water going back into sea water. If so, how could it possibly return as a rabbit or in some other form in its entirety? For eternity these waters are returning to the sea and mixing about then leaving the sea. The sea is ever changing, Without the ever changing waters coming and going it does not exist at all. Yet it does exist.
On another level there was some uneasiness about the perception of and seeking oneness. All these shamanic type experiences of oneness with the bird, the people the crowd the trees. Of what good is it? It appears so one sided.
A verse came to mind by a sage called Allama.
"With your alchemies,
you achieve metals
but no essence.
With your manifold yogas
you achieve
a body but no spirit.
With your speeches and arguments
you build a chain of words
but cannot define the spirit.
If you say
you and I are One
you were me
but I was not you."
It may be that there is an experience of flying through the bird with no sense of separate existence or tasting the food another is eating, or the heart that has merged for some time with that of another, but of what use is it to the other? Maybe I was them but they clearly were not aware of me. Did this oneness experience that I had with the other help them in any way. Something is was off.
I had listened to so many chatter about oneness with each other "Lets-all-hold-hands-in-a circle-because-we-are-really-one-with -each-other-and-the-earth- and-pray-and-meditate- together" and on and on. Yet do we want this really even any more than the chicken wants to walk about joined at the wing with another. We have our own porches, 3000 square foot houses, and we buy hybrid cars so we can drive to work alone and feel better about conserving gas in spite of not wanting to carpool with the neighbors.
Everyone appears to be saying they are striving for a oneness experience with mankind or nature. To become what they see with no sense of separate existence in the name of world peace and the planet Earth.
It was not adding up. A key was missing somewhere.
Could it be that it is Oneness with God and not the material realm that man is truly seeking-this stuff that is already there-the contents of the bubble so to speak? Could it be that is what is truly possible? Had I been barking up the wrong tree? Did I misinterpret the assignment?
*************
At the April 24th event there was a strangeness bordering on discomfort. It was kind of an on edge feeling.
I started to get bored during the chanting. When I saw there was boredom there was shift in the chest. There was physical pain in the heart and I saw there was a plant there and it shot up destroying the heart and upper half of the body and flowered into an amaryllis. A red one.
"Is this the flowering of the heart? This is kind of hokey." Was the thought. It felt like the upper half of my body was gone and had expanded into the night. I could hear the chanting.
Then Bhagavan was standing physically in front of me looking into my eyes with concern, tapping me on the face and saying it was time to wake up. The red amaryllis was gone. It was a waking dream.
I saw that in the thinking I was the body, mind and spirit-some eternal absolute unchanging soul that there was always going to be dreaming while awake just as there was dreaming while the body slept. The nightmares and sweet dreams of physical sleeping and physical "waking." would always be there. It was a chain of thought-a futile attempt to create some sense of relativity where there was none-creating untold misery-the taking something that was not there at all and building on it. The illusion of absolute truth.
I was overwhelmed with compassion as that is just how it is for mankind-this non stop dreaming with the eyes open and with the eyes closed. No wonder we suffer so. We never wake up. No wonder the baby cries before he sleeps and cries when he awakens.
This thinking the of the body-the vehicle of the mind as myself-had made life-maybe many lifetimes almost totally irrelevant. It only dies. The relationships will die with it as well. No wonder there is existential suffering-this loneliness and a sense of meaninglessness. How could it be otherwise in this dream state? Look at the effects of bodies trying to relate with bodies like so many living corpses.
I looked up and saw and heard these people chanting the same chant sitting in the same way all encapsulating God- this One-like soap bubbles. All holding the essence of the Divine. Love came. My Lord is right there in all of them. In all of me.
Could it be this Oneness with God this love of God-must come first before there is a love for or a oneness with mankind? Otherwise its a one sided experience-a shaman's dream. A thousand locks blew open.
And the wonder of it. The relief. As soon as It is, It is no more.
It was not like there are fireworks or anything remarkable since, outside of an acceptance of a life that is Divine. I get up in the morning just am. There is a wonder. The word is fresh and rich and full. Such joy.
There is nothing left to worship and every reason to worship.
*********
I saw in a vision a guru who declared himself to be God. One by one his students said, "I am God," He wept with joy and declared himself man.
*********
If you would like to experience a mukti deeksha visit http://www.worldonenesscommunity.com and click events.
I suspected at times much of it was thought or imagination and my best friend, Lisa, would call it "special effects" -yet in the experience there does not appear to be thought at all-just pure experience. The perception is you clearly are what you see. Actually it is generally some thought or idea that cuts the experience. There would be some great shifts in consciousness and then some low points. Through it all, the antaryamin has manifested internally and externally. The Supreme Friend. Even when the dog even turns away or looks at me in disgust, the Antaryamin has been there- my hero, my champion, my knight in shining armor, my lover, loving me even as I could not love truly love either him or myself.
Now some might suppose that someone is in a higher state than another because this awakening of antrayamin-this moving from belief to discovery- has occurred. I know very well first hand it is not the case. It is not that I stepped up to the antaryamin. It is that the antaryamin stepped down for me. And over and over and over-this stepping down. Such experience happens because it is necessary not because someone does something to deserve it. It is grace. I cannot say that I know God. All I can really say is if there is such a power his will is very strange. It is very evident that the awakening of the antaryamin is not the annihilation of suffering yet it's a huge part of the process-a part that keeps you from going insane- from putting a tire full of kerosene around your neck, lighting a match, and running around in the back yard until its all over. If you are truly, and I do mean truly, not superficially, going to strive to realize your condition and confront your self you are going to need one hell of a friend. Seek this awakening. It is a very simple way of seeing and then asking.
Over the last few years during and since returning from the 21 day process at the Golden City in 2006, there were two big insights that really helped me. One was that gratitude and suffering cannot coexist. I saw how little gratitude there is when there is suffering and in that seeing gratitude grew.
The most recent insight (before the mukti diksha) came about one night a year or so ago when I was weeping for a relative. I found out he was really suffering physically sometimes due to his situation and some not having enough to meet some physical needs. I was crying and crying and gasping to the point of almost vomiting. I had nothing material to give that would help long term and felt so helpless. I could have put a kitchen knife in my abdomen, and it would not have been as painful as this.
The suffering escalated even more and it was like there was a shift happening -a teetering -like when you are running a long time and are really hurting and ready to drop and every muscle is screaming and suddenly this shift comes and it's pleasure. I was right about there-crossed between thinking I would die from this agony and actually starting to feel pleasure, when suddenly the thought came: "You would feel better if you got something to eat. There is some Indian food in the freezer." Everything brightened for a minute. "Yes! I could eat and I will feel better!" and there was hope. I lost the experience.
Then the thought came, "Loser! You can't even suffer! "
I started to sob because I felt so sorry for myself that I could not even suffer. Then it was like a light went off - a crack like a gunshot. "I am suffering because I cannot suffer." The relief was unimaginable. Light came. It was an amazing state and I looked for suffering in the way you fiddle with you finger when you have taken off a ring that you had worn for many years. It just wasn't there. While the 20 deekshas I have received may have helped arrive at the insight it very much appeared it is insight and not deeksha that impacts the brain and burns out the circuits of suffering so to speak.
The state would come and go and it would sometimes take some time before the perception shifted. But it was like each suffering was a learning and the following state was better.
The first mukti deeksha webcast with Bhagavan on March 20th was staggering for some time. It was like the mind was busy bothering someone else and the state was very good. Thoughts were not arising. To see everything was automatic was a great annihilator of guilt and negative judgement. I could actually see this. Who can help anything? All was forgiven-even myself.
There was a feeling of expansion- like the eyes were somewhere the ears somewhere else it was like there was no relativity and a happiness about it. There was still a kind of feeling like I had been worrying about something but could not remember what I had been worrying about. It was like a bad dream was behind me and the past erased. Yet I knew the dream was there. Lurking. It was difficult to drive home.
I was doing the dishes the next morning and a soap bubble arose and hovered for a long time before my eyes as if daring me to look. I saw that I was like a piece of a whole for a moment that was enveloped for some time by a membrane. Then the bubble popped and the space inside it became indistinguishable from the air. Oneness.
All around me there were signs and glimpses of this. There was a rabbit that had been run over on the road and I saw how the rabbit was like the bubble. Is this life and death? Is it death to be the bubble or life to be the bubble? Both....
Would the rabbit find another form to live in or would it merge with the One and become indistinguishable like a drop of milk going into the ocean. Maybe it was more like sea water going back into sea water. If so, how could it possibly return as a rabbit or in some other form in its entirety? For eternity these waters are returning to the sea and mixing about then leaving the sea. The sea is ever changing, Without the ever changing waters coming and going it does not exist at all. Yet it does exist.
On another level there was some uneasiness about the perception of and seeking oneness. All these shamanic type experiences of oneness with the bird, the people the crowd the trees. Of what good is it? It appears so one sided.
A verse came to mind by a sage called Allama.
"With your alchemies,
you achieve metals
but no essence.
With your manifold yogas
you achieve
a body but no spirit.
With your speeches and arguments
you build a chain of words
but cannot define the spirit.
If you say
you and I are One
you were me
but I was not you."
It may be that there is an experience of flying through the bird with no sense of separate existence or tasting the food another is eating, or the heart that has merged for some time with that of another, but of what use is it to the other? Maybe I was them but they clearly were not aware of me. Did this oneness experience that I had with the other help them in any way. Something is was off.
I had listened to so many chatter about oneness with each other "Lets-all-hold-hands-in-a circle-because-we-are-really-one-with -each-other-and-the-earth- and-pray-and-meditate- together" and on and on. Yet do we want this really even any more than the chicken wants to walk about joined at the wing with another. We have our own porches, 3000 square foot houses, and we buy hybrid cars so we can drive to work alone and feel better about conserving gas in spite of not wanting to carpool with the neighbors.
Everyone appears to be saying they are striving for a oneness experience with mankind or nature. To become what they see with no sense of separate existence in the name of world peace and the planet Earth.
It was not adding up. A key was missing somewhere.
Could it be that it is Oneness with God and not the material realm that man is truly seeking-this stuff that is already there-the contents of the bubble so to speak? Could it be that is what is truly possible? Had I been barking up the wrong tree? Did I misinterpret the assignment?
*************
At the April 24th event there was a strangeness bordering on discomfort. It was kind of an on edge feeling.
I started to get bored during the chanting. When I saw there was boredom there was shift in the chest. There was physical pain in the heart and I saw there was a plant there and it shot up destroying the heart and upper half of the body and flowered into an amaryllis. A red one.
"Is this the flowering of the heart? This is kind of hokey." Was the thought. It felt like the upper half of my body was gone and had expanded into the night. I could hear the chanting.
Then Bhagavan was standing physically in front of me looking into my eyes with concern, tapping me on the face and saying it was time to wake up. The red amaryllis was gone. It was a waking dream.
I saw that in the thinking I was the body, mind and spirit-some eternal absolute unchanging soul that there was always going to be dreaming while awake just as there was dreaming while the body slept. The nightmares and sweet dreams of physical sleeping and physical "waking." would always be there. It was a chain of thought-a futile attempt to create some sense of relativity where there was none-creating untold misery-the taking something that was not there at all and building on it. The illusion of absolute truth.
I was overwhelmed with compassion as that is just how it is for mankind-this non stop dreaming with the eyes open and with the eyes closed. No wonder we suffer so. We never wake up. No wonder the baby cries before he sleeps and cries when he awakens.
This thinking the of the body-the vehicle of the mind as myself-had made life-maybe many lifetimes almost totally irrelevant. It only dies. The relationships will die with it as well. No wonder there is existential suffering-this loneliness and a sense of meaninglessness. How could it be otherwise in this dream state? Look at the effects of bodies trying to relate with bodies like so many living corpses.
I looked up and saw and heard these people chanting the same chant sitting in the same way all encapsulating God- this One-like soap bubbles. All holding the essence of the Divine. Love came. My Lord is right there in all of them. In all of me.
Could it be this Oneness with God this love of God-must come first before there is a love for or a oneness with mankind? Otherwise its a one sided experience-a shaman's dream. A thousand locks blew open.
And the wonder of it. The relief. As soon as It is, It is no more.
It was not like there are fireworks or anything remarkable since, outside of an acceptance of a life that is Divine. I get up in the morning just am. There is a wonder. The word is fresh and rich and full. Such joy.
There is nothing left to worship and every reason to worship.
*********
I saw in a vision a guru who declared himself to be God. One by one his students said, "I am God," He wept with joy and declared himself man.
*********
If you would like to experience a mukti deeksha visit http://www.worldonenesscommunity.com and click events.
Sunday, April 25, 2010
March 30 Mukti Deeksha Transcript
Today is the day of awakening.
Living without being awakened is no living at all. It is merely an
effort for survival.
Why is it that we do not live? It is the mind which prevents us from living.
How does the mind prevent us from living?
The mind does not allow us to experience reality as it is.
When you experience reality as it is then you are living.
But the mind does not allow that to happen.
Why? The mind is all the time naming, it is judging and trying to
convert it into memory.
That is why the mind never allows you to actually experience anything.
Therefore, in order to live we have to be free of the mind.
There is yet another reason why we should be free of the mind.
The mind is responsible for all our problems throughout our human
existence. It creates problems then it tries to solve the problems. In
that very effort it keeps surviving. Without problems the mind cannot
survive. That is what is responsible for all our problems.
As long as we are not free of the mind problems are not going to cease.
The individual, the collective, political, be it economical, be it
social, be it environmental, what not - the root is in the mind.
Unless and until we are free of the mind, these problems are not going
to come to an end.
To be free of the mind is the only revolution. There is no other
revolution that can really transform man. Therefore it is very
important to be free of the mind. When we say that we must be free of
the mind we are not talking of extinguishing the mind - no, not at
all. The mind will very much be there, in fact it will be working more
efficiently. But then instead of the mind making rules of our lives we
will be making use of the mind. That is the only difference that is
going to take place now. The mind will very be there, but then we will
be making use of this.
This freedom of the mind is what we call the awakening.
So today, if all things go well, in a matter of two hours listening to
this web cast today you should be awakened! Today, here and now.
So how do we go about this?
We're going to use what is called the Mukti Deeksha. We were speaking
to you earlier on the Skype that from January 2011 would be the
programming and from July 2011 we would be doing the process. But then
there is not much time left, so we have fused the two into a short
compact programme.
Amma and I have taken a sankalpa that it works. The last few weeks it
has been working very well and thousands of people have made it.
So now we are handing over this Mukti Deeksha to you. It's going to
become yours in the next two hours. Not only will you be making it but
you will be able to make use of it to awaken others.
So the count down has begun. We are not going to wait until the end of
2010, 2011, or 2012.
We are starting right away. You will be awakened and you will be
awakening others and it is
your mission to complete the awakening of man. It is in your hands now.
So now we will go into the process itself.
I shall again repeat the example I have been giving all over the
world, again and again, in order that it enters your consciousness.
So we have a television set which is your consciousness, it is
connected to the DVD player which is your mind. In turn it is
connected to a power source and the power is flowing. The power that
flows is the Deeksha and the source of power is the divine.
Now we have to get the CD ready. The CD is the teachings which I gave
in the month of February. Hopefully you have worked on it and actually
understood it.
I will be revising the CD, that is the five basic teachings for
awakening. And then we will be uploading it with the 49 minute
Sadanas. Once the uploading is over, we switch on. That is the Deeksha
for which you will go and touch the padukas if you have there, or
Amma Bhagavan's picture if there, or if you prefer to touch an icon
of your choice it could be from any faith - Christianity, Islam,
Budism, Hinduism, whatever you want. Any icon you could touch. The
Deeksha will be given directly by the Divine without any human
intervention. This is a very special Deeksha. That is why it is
called Mukti Deeksha and once you receive it, it is all over.
The state will be there. For some people it will take a little time,
maybe a day or two. If all goes well it has to be permanent,
irreversible, the first time itself.
If for any chance the state were to dip, again repeat the chant, or
back home you could repeat the process in case it dips it will come
back with a bang. Those that do not get it now could go home and
repeat it and it will come back. In case it dips, once or twice,
repeat and it remain permanently, irreversibly, with you for life.
You have the freedom to repeat it whenever you want to. YOu will be
moving into deeper and higher states of consciousness. It's all up to
you.
So now we go into the five teachings:
Repeat it after me:
The first is 'your thoughts are not your thoughts'.
The second is 'your mind is not mind'.
The third is your body is not your body.
Fifth is 'All things are happening automatically'.
Sixth is 'I as a person do not exist.'
These are the teachings.
So now, as I say it you repeat it after me in your native tongue.
Which if it happens to be English, I will be speaking in English, you
will repeat it in whatever language is your native tongue.
So here we go now. I'll make a slight change in it,
~ thoughts are not mine
~ mind is not mine
~ this body is not my body
~ all things are happening automatically
~ I as a person do not exist
Who or what is it that is making this statement?
You are saying mind is not there but somebody is there watching. What is that?
So it is obvious that something is existing - that is satta -
existence. What is not there is identification, I am doing things is
not there. The person who says 'this is mine' is not there.
The atman - This atman is what we call the unborn and the undying. The
unchanging and the imperishable.
Water cannot wet, knife cannot cut. It is the eternal ever present I,
the presence.
That's what is there. This is described as Satta. It has a sense of existence.
There is also called Chitta - there is no English equivalent of this,
the best we could translate it as
consciousness and intelligence fused together. Consciousness and
tremendous intelligence. It can
observe your mind, your body and all your actions. Therefore it is
Chitta, and it experiences unconditional, limitless joy. That is why
it is called Ananda. It is called satchinanda. The name given to it is
parabramha. That's why we keep chanting satchinanda parabramha.
So you are that - the unborn, the undying, the eternal, the ever
present, the ever present presence.
That's what you really are.
You are existence, consciousness, bliss.
You are not the thoughts.
You are not the mind.
You are not the body.
You are not the one who is acting.
All actions are taking place automatically.
You are the eternal witness - that's what you are.
You have been searching for this all your life [??] you have been
searching for this.
Your search has been futile because you have been searching in the
wrong places.
Like you see in movies, some guy has a hat on his head then he keeps
asking 'where is my hat?'
You are the one you have been searching for.
You are the one you have been waiting for.
That has been the problem.
The index finger which points at objects cannot point at itself.
The eye which sees cannot see itself.
That is the problem.
Today you are going to see that.
You are going to be that.
So now I will first say three times and after I have said you will say.
Then I will be on Skype for the next few minutes, the Skype will be
shut down and Amma and I will be fully focused on you for the next 49
minutes. And when you come and touch the altar we will still be
focused on you. And then it's all over.
So you'll be changing your courses into Oneness Awakening Courses. How
that should be done soon an email will be sent to you with all the
guidelines laid out.
We are transferring the power to you today.
We have initiated the process of dissolution which we said would start
in 2014, we have initiated that today.
So I will say and you will repeat it after me.
In your native tongue, this is very crucial. If English happens to be
your native tongue fine otherwise in your native tongue.
I am Existence, Consciousness, Bliss.
Repeat in your native tongue for 49 minutes:
I am existence, consciousness, bliss
Sri Bhagavan
Living without being awakened is no living at all. It is merely an
effort for survival.
Why is it that we do not live? It is the mind which prevents us from living.
How does the mind prevent us from living?
The mind does not allow us to experience reality as it is.
When you experience reality as it is then you are living.
But the mind does not allow that to happen.
Why? The mind is all the time naming, it is judging and trying to
convert it into memory.
That is why the mind never allows you to actually experience anything.
Therefore, in order to live we have to be free of the mind.
There is yet another reason why we should be free of the mind.
The mind is responsible for all our problems throughout our human
existence. It creates problems then it tries to solve the problems. In
that very effort it keeps surviving. Without problems the mind cannot
survive. That is what is responsible for all our problems.
As long as we are not free of the mind problems are not going to cease.
The individual, the collective, political, be it economical, be it
social, be it environmental, what not - the root is in the mind.
Unless and until we are free of the mind, these problems are not going
to come to an end.
To be free of the mind is the only revolution. There is no other
revolution that can really transform man. Therefore it is very
important to be free of the mind. When we say that we must be free of
the mind we are not talking of extinguishing the mind - no, not at
all. The mind will very much be there, in fact it will be working more
efficiently. But then instead of the mind making rules of our lives we
will be making use of the mind. That is the only difference that is
going to take place now. The mind will very be there, but then we will
be making use of this.
This freedom of the mind is what we call the awakening.
So today, if all things go well, in a matter of two hours listening to
this web cast today you should be awakened! Today, here and now.
So how do we go about this?
We're going to use what is called the Mukti Deeksha. We were speaking
to you earlier on the Skype that from January 2011 would be the
programming and from July 2011 we would be doing the process. But then
there is not much time left, so we have fused the two into a short
compact programme.
Amma and I have taken a sankalpa that it works. The last few weeks it
has been working very well and thousands of people have made it.
So now we are handing over this Mukti Deeksha to you. It's going to
become yours in the next two hours. Not only will you be making it but
you will be able to make use of it to awaken others.
So the count down has begun. We are not going to wait until the end of
2010, 2011, or 2012.
We are starting right away. You will be awakened and you will be
awakening others and it is
your mission to complete the awakening of man. It is in your hands now.
So now we will go into the process itself.
I shall again repeat the example I have been giving all over the
world, again and again, in order that it enters your consciousness.
So we have a television set which is your consciousness, it is
connected to the DVD player which is your mind. In turn it is
connected to a power source and the power is flowing. The power that
flows is the Deeksha and the source of power is the divine.
Now we have to get the CD ready. The CD is the teachings which I gave
in the month of February. Hopefully you have worked on it and actually
understood it.
I will be revising the CD, that is the five basic teachings for
awakening. And then we will be uploading it with the 49 minute
Sadanas. Once the uploading is over, we switch on. That is the Deeksha
for which you will go and touch the padukas if you have there, or
Amma Bhagavan's picture if there, or if you prefer to touch an icon
of your choice it could be from any faith - Christianity, Islam,
Budism, Hinduism, whatever you want. Any icon you could touch. The
Deeksha will be given directly by the Divine without any human
intervention. This is a very special Deeksha. That is why it is
called Mukti Deeksha and once you receive it, it is all over.
The state will be there. For some people it will take a little time,
maybe a day or two. If all goes well it has to be permanent,
irreversible, the first time itself.
If for any chance the state were to dip, again repeat the chant, or
back home you could repeat the process in case it dips it will come
back with a bang. Those that do not get it now could go home and
repeat it and it will come back. In case it dips, once or twice,
repeat and it remain permanently, irreversibly, with you for life.
You have the freedom to repeat it whenever you want to. YOu will be
moving into deeper and higher states of consciousness. It's all up to
you.
So now we go into the five teachings:
Repeat it after me:
The first is 'your thoughts are not your thoughts'.
The second is 'your mind is not mind'.
The third is your body is not your body.
Fifth is 'All things are happening automatically'.
Sixth is 'I as a person do not exist.'
These are the teachings.
So now, as I say it you repeat it after me in your native tongue.
Which if it happens to be English, I will be speaking in English, you
will repeat it in whatever language is your native tongue.
So here we go now. I'll make a slight change in it,
~ thoughts are not mine
~ mind is not mine
~ this body is not my body
~ all things are happening automatically
~ I as a person do not exist
Who or what is it that is making this statement?
You are saying mind is not there but somebody is there watching. What is that?
So it is obvious that something is existing - that is satta -
existence. What is not there is identification, I am doing things is
not there. The person who says 'this is mine' is not there.
The atman - This atman is what we call the unborn and the undying. The
unchanging and the imperishable.
Water cannot wet, knife cannot cut. It is the eternal ever present I,
the presence.
That's what is there. This is described as Satta. It has a sense of existence.
There is also called Chitta - there is no English equivalent of this,
the best we could translate it as
consciousness and intelligence fused together. Consciousness and
tremendous intelligence. It can
observe your mind, your body and all your actions. Therefore it is
Chitta, and it experiences unconditional, limitless joy. That is why
it is called Ananda. It is called satchinanda. The name given to it is
parabramha. That's why we keep chanting satchinanda parabramha.
So you are that - the unborn, the undying, the eternal, the ever
present, the ever present presence.
That's what you really are.
You are existence, consciousness, bliss.
You are not the thoughts.
You are not the mind.
You are not the body.
You are not the one who is acting.
All actions are taking place automatically.
You are the eternal witness - that's what you are.
You have been searching for this all your life [??] you have been
searching for this.
Your search has been futile because you have been searching in the
wrong places.
Like you see in movies, some guy has a hat on his head then he keeps
asking 'where is my hat?'
You are the one you have been searching for.
You are the one you have been waiting for.
That has been the problem.
The index finger which points at objects cannot point at itself.
The eye which sees cannot see itself.
That is the problem.
Today you are going to see that.
You are going to be that.
So now I will first say three times and after I have said you will say.
Then I will be on Skype for the next few minutes, the Skype will be
shut down and Amma and I will be fully focused on you for the next 49
minutes. And when you come and touch the altar we will still be
focused on you. And then it's all over.
So you'll be changing your courses into Oneness Awakening Courses. How
that should be done soon an email will be sent to you with all the
guidelines laid out.
We are transferring the power to you today.
We have initiated the process of dissolution which we said would start
in 2014, we have initiated that today.
So I will say and you will repeat it after me.
In your native tongue, this is very crucial. If English happens to be
your native tongue fine otherwise in your native tongue.
I am Existence, Consciousness, Bliss.
Repeat in your native tongue for 49 minutes:
I am existence, consciousness, bliss
Sri Bhagavan
Thursday, April 1, 2010
Good Friday Diksha 6:15 AM Phoenix/La Time
Namaste,
Welcome late registrants-I will check the email box at 5:30 AM for your names.
*************
Good Friday is observed as the day the Christ was crucified.
"And he bearing his cross went forth into a place called the place of a skull, which is called Golgotha" (John 19:17).
"And when they were come unto a place called Golgotha, that is to say, a place of a skull" (Matthew 27:33).
"And they bring him unto the place Golgotha, which is "The place of a skull" (Mark 15:22).
"And when they were come to the place, which is called Calvary, there they crucified him, and the malefactors, one on the right hand, and the other on the left" (Luke 23:33). (Calvary means cranium).
Symbolically we will go to the place of the skull -meditate on the crown chakra for this vision quest into a scriptural event. Focus your awareness on the crown for several minutes. You can tap it or touch it lightly briefly to help you if you like.
1. Ask the Divine or Bhagavan to help you to experience the heart of the Christ the day of the crucifixion.
2. Then chant the following "Aum Sat Chit Ananda" (or you can chant the English if you are more comfortable: I am Existence Consciousness Bliss) 15 times. This mantra relates to the crown chakra.
Then keep your awareness on the brow area. There is a screen of sorts in this area that we dream on.
I will be sending Diksha for half an hour. It would be best of you can stay seated 5-10 minutes then if desired you can recline on your back if you like. If you are meditating before an alter or a Sri Murthi (icon) of Bhagavan and recline put your head towards the alter. It is not good to expose the minor chakras in the feet to the Sri Murthi or the alter. Likewise do not sit with your feet out so the soles are exposed to the alter. Remember head to God feet to earth.:).
In past years many have experienced tremendous states of surrender, a new found wonder for the relationship between the Divine and man, the discovery of love, insights into suffering and a seeing of the direct relationship between suffering and liberation, insights into forgiveness and sacrifice, deep states of gratitude and wonder.
When I first did this vision quest I was not prepared for the state of surrender of the heart of the Christ. It transformed my life..
If you would like to share your experiences or insights it would be wonderful- please do so -but advise if it is for this group only or if it is OK to put on the blog at http://vedicshamanism.blogspot.com
Til then-
*****************
Background-not necessary to read just an FYI for those wanting more Info:
n the early years, the occidental (Western born) group in the USA were primarily raised Judeo Christian. The monk that helped us had gone to a Jesuit school is my understanding. We celebrated traditional holidays and gathered together for the holidays as a family would, and we connected with the other centers through teleconferences.
On religious holidays we often asked for personal experience and insight surrounding various scriptural events. For example during a Christmas Eve retreat we asked for an experience of that first Christmas. Some experienced the heart of of Mary that first Christmas. We saw that the minute she held her child she knew of the sacrifice. Imagine what it would be to hold your baby and know of such a destiny. Others had experiences as well and then we all shared them and received new insights. The historical and scriptural events became very much alive to us.
I will be adhering to that tradition by offering a Good Friday Deeksha where some of you will have the experience of the heart of the Christ as he fulfilled his destiny.
This way of seeing can make the scriptures from any religion become very much alive. Deep insight and can be gained. To attend a Stations of the Cross (Via Dolorosa or Way of Sorrows) for lent is a miraculous insightful experience in such a state. It goes beyond ritual, blessings, gratitude and tears into actual experience and insight.
Sometimes while you ask for a specific experience it shifts to that of something or someone close by or what may appear to be unrelated at the time. Perhaps it by some karmic bond or for some reason you are to carry a bit of information like a torch a couple thousand years into the future. Some in the past have asked for this experience of the heart of the Christ yet experienced Mary as she watched her son die, a by stander, Simon, the soldier who awakened on the spot and became God realized after piercing the side of the Christ with a lance.
You may have the experience of a bystander, the man who gave his tomb or you may be given what you asked to experience or perhaps nothing at all. It is all Grace.
DD
www.vedicshamanism.com
Welcome late registrants-I will check the email box at 5:30 AM for your names.
*************
Good Friday is observed as the day the Christ was crucified.
"And he bearing his cross went forth into a place called the place of a skull, which is called Golgotha" (John 19:17).
"And when they were come unto a place called Golgotha, that is to say, a place of a skull" (Matthew 27:33).
"And they bring him unto the place Golgotha, which is "The place of a skull" (Mark 15:22).
"And when they were come to the place, which is called Calvary, there they crucified him, and the malefactors, one on the right hand, and the other on the left" (Luke 23:33). (Calvary means cranium).
Symbolically we will go to the place of the skull -meditate on the crown chakra for this vision quest into a scriptural event. Focus your awareness on the crown for several minutes. You can tap it or touch it lightly briefly to help you if you like.
1. Ask the Divine or Bhagavan to help you to experience the heart of the Christ the day of the crucifixion.
2. Then chant the following "Aum Sat Chit Ananda" (or you can chant the English if you are more comfortable: I am Existence Consciousness Bliss) 15 times. This mantra relates to the crown chakra.
Then keep your awareness on the brow area. There is a screen of sorts in this area that we dream on.
I will be sending Diksha for half an hour. It would be best of you can stay seated 5-10 minutes then if desired you can recline on your back if you like. If you are meditating before an alter or a Sri Murthi (icon) of Bhagavan and recline put your head towards the alter. It is not good to expose the minor chakras in the feet to the Sri Murthi or the alter. Likewise do not sit with your feet out so the soles are exposed to the alter. Remember head to God feet to earth.:).
In past years many have experienced tremendous states of surrender, a new found wonder for the relationship between the Divine and man, the discovery of love, insights into suffering and a seeing of the direct relationship between suffering and liberation, insights into forgiveness and sacrifice, deep states of gratitude and wonder.
When I first did this vision quest I was not prepared for the state of surrender of the heart of the Christ. It transformed my life..
If you would like to share your experiences or insights it would be wonderful- please do so -but advise if it is for this group only or if it is OK to put on the blog at http://vedicshamanism.blogspot.com
Til then-
*****************
Background-not necessary to read just an FYI for those wanting more Info:
n the early years, the occidental (Western born) group in the USA were primarily raised Judeo Christian. The monk that helped us had gone to a Jesuit school is my understanding. We celebrated traditional holidays and gathered together for the holidays as a family would, and we connected with the other centers through teleconferences.
On religious holidays we often asked for personal experience and insight surrounding various scriptural events. For example during a Christmas Eve retreat we asked for an experience of that first Christmas. Some experienced the heart of of Mary that first Christmas. We saw that the minute she held her child she knew of the sacrifice. Imagine what it would be to hold your baby and know of such a destiny. Others had experiences as well and then we all shared them and received new insights. The historical and scriptural events became very much alive to us.
I will be adhering to that tradition by offering a Good Friday Deeksha where some of you will have the experience of the heart of the Christ as he fulfilled his destiny.
This way of seeing can make the scriptures from any religion become very much alive. Deep insight and can be gained. To attend a Stations of the Cross (Via Dolorosa or Way of Sorrows) for lent is a miraculous insightful experience in such a state. It goes beyond ritual, blessings, gratitude and tears into actual experience and insight.
Sometimes while you ask for a specific experience it shifts to that of something or someone close by or what may appear to be unrelated at the time. Perhaps it by some karmic bond or for some reason you are to carry a bit of information like a torch a couple thousand years into the future. Some in the past have asked for this experience of the heart of the Christ yet experienced Mary as she watched her son die, a by stander, Simon, the soldier who awakened on the spot and became God realized after piercing the side of the Christ with a lance.
You may have the experience of a bystander, the man who gave his tomb or you may be given what you asked to experience or perhaps nothing at all. It is all Grace.
DD
www.vedicshamanism.com
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
Mukti Deeksha Followup
From Vedic Shamanism Newsletter:
Thank you to all who attended the Mukti Deekshas in various places last weekend. The feedback has been great and the experience was great.
It has been my experience if Bhagavan tells you something personally you can take it to the bank. He has told you now about the Mukti Deeksha.
Here is my experience on this matter: I had taken vows along with Rani and 6 others at Satyaloka. We were taking on the teaching duties of the monks in the USA. There was no charge for any programs at the time and the teachers paid for everything including the food, ads and hall rental themselves. It was costly work and was a struggle to meet physical necessities at times.
Yet it was observed by the ancients that when a teacher (guru) made sacrifices in behalf of others the people who were sacrificed for became very important to the Divine. So we employed the dynamic of sacrifice to help the people. Some of the people grew in a very big way, experiencing states of sages, saints, prophets and mystics and transforming others through their presence. Most had experienced the Awakening of the Antaryamin in a moment just for the asking.
Amazing to see them for many of them Heaven had met Earth. They had entered the Golden Age which is a state of consciousness as well as an astrological event and there they remain.
Bhagavan sacrificed greatly for us as teachers, giving of his substance not his abundance and we in turn sacrificed for the people that he would touch and speak to through us. It is an ancient tradition and a great blessing to do this.
Almost immediately upon Bhagavan sending message through Ananda Giri that we would be well provided for, money began to come into the house. Within several months I had made well over a good year's salary as an independent sales contractor and really only had to work a few days a month. I could pick up and go to India, help others financially to go as well and continue teaching in this tradition at home and in other states. I was able to go back and forth to Phoenix and speak and give diksha at expos and gatherings without thinking twice.
Bhagavan has told us directly about the mukti deeksha. He means it. If there is a perceived backsliding just recite the mantra for some time and ask him to help you immediately. If you have to ask every minute do it. You will be back in that "Sat Chit Ananda state almost immediately. Do not let laziness or discouragement cheat you of this-you will soon move into enlightenment experiences and then beyond as is this your natural state. The suffering is not natural.
If your car is stalling, you keep increasing the gas, gunning the engine. You do not shut it off leave it there on the road and walk away. As long as the engine turns over you do not call a tow truck or trade it in.
You talk to the car. "Come on, Baby, get me home. just a few more miles, Darling." You are very tuned into it, aware of it as you pull for the sputtering car on all levels-all levels especially your heart. You root for it. You celebrate when it sputters, starts up and rolls. There is gratitude. Pull for your state.
Talk to Bhagavan. Give him that much at least. Many many times he has said, "If only you would ask." That is all prayer is- to simply ask. To worship is to express gratitude.
A backslide is really a blink and not a fall. The mind can be tricky and will battle for security is all. Chant and ask, chant and ask chant and ask. Consciousness on one level is sound based for those who want some science behind it. These are the sounds that will help. Chant and ask chant and ask.
Many thanks to Hilary, http://www.flowerofgrace.com/ to Zelie and Lucia http://web.me.com/luciakmaya/Luminous_Adventures/Oneness_Blessing_Events,_Classes_and_Retreats.html and friends for making last weekend's Mukti Blessing possible for the people of AZ.
It was so wonderful to have the doors open to all once more. There has been a tangible shift in Az and the blessing of unexpected rain in the desert-always a wonderful omen of blessings from the Divine. The desert is alive and flowering, as the landscape and consciousness are intertwined.
While the open to all Mukti Deeksha webcast was a very brief window of opportunity as I expected, it is my understanding that the weekly webcasts have now been discontinued to be replaced with a two day course in many areas that includes it. I apologize for the previous miscommunication about weekly events.
You can find events near you at http://www.worldonenesscommunity.com .
Again much gratitude to those who dropped everything and went to receive the Mukti Deeksha on such short notice and on faith. Mankind has moved much closer to enlightenment.
Namaste,
DD
www.vedicshamanism.com
Thank you to all who attended the Mukti Deekshas in various places last weekend. The feedback has been great and the experience was great.
It has been my experience if Bhagavan tells you something personally you can take it to the bank. He has told you now about the Mukti Deeksha.
Here is my experience on this matter: I had taken vows along with Rani and 6 others at Satyaloka. We were taking on the teaching duties of the monks in the USA. There was no charge for any programs at the time and the teachers paid for everything including the food, ads and hall rental themselves. It was costly work and was a struggle to meet physical necessities at times.
Yet it was observed by the ancients that when a teacher (guru) made sacrifices in behalf of others the people who were sacrificed for became very important to the Divine. So we employed the dynamic of sacrifice to help the people. Some of the people grew in a very big way, experiencing states of sages, saints, prophets and mystics and transforming others through their presence. Most had experienced the Awakening of the Antaryamin in a moment just for the asking.
Amazing to see them for many of them Heaven had met Earth. They had entered the Golden Age which is a state of consciousness as well as an astrological event and there they remain.
Bhagavan sacrificed greatly for us as teachers, giving of his substance not his abundance and we in turn sacrificed for the people that he would touch and speak to through us. It is an ancient tradition and a great blessing to do this.
Almost immediately upon Bhagavan sending message through Ananda Giri that we would be well provided for, money began to come into the house. Within several months I had made well over a good year's salary as an independent sales contractor and really only had to work a few days a month. I could pick up and go to India, help others financially to go as well and continue teaching in this tradition at home and in other states. I was able to go back and forth to Phoenix and speak and give diksha at expos and gatherings without thinking twice.
Bhagavan has told us directly about the mukti deeksha. He means it. If there is a perceived backsliding just recite the mantra for some time and ask him to help you immediately. If you have to ask every minute do it. You will be back in that "Sat Chit Ananda state almost immediately. Do not let laziness or discouragement cheat you of this-you will soon move into enlightenment experiences and then beyond as is this your natural state. The suffering is not natural.
If your car is stalling, you keep increasing the gas, gunning the engine. You do not shut it off leave it there on the road and walk away. As long as the engine turns over you do not call a tow truck or trade it in.
You talk to the car. "Come on, Baby, get me home. just a few more miles, Darling." You are very tuned into it, aware of it as you pull for the sputtering car on all levels-all levels especially your heart. You root for it. You celebrate when it sputters, starts up and rolls. There is gratitude. Pull for your state.
Talk to Bhagavan. Give him that much at least. Many many times he has said, "If only you would ask." That is all prayer is- to simply ask. To worship is to express gratitude.
A backslide is really a blink and not a fall. The mind can be tricky and will battle for security is all. Chant and ask, chant and ask chant and ask. Consciousness on one level is sound based for those who want some science behind it. These are the sounds that will help. Chant and ask chant and ask.
Many thanks to Hilary, http://www.flowerofgrace.com/ to Zelie and Lucia http://web.me.com/luciakmaya/Luminous_Adventures/Oneness_Blessing_Events,_Classes_and_Retreats.html and friends for making last weekend's Mukti Blessing possible for the people of AZ.
It was so wonderful to have the doors open to all once more. There has been a tangible shift in Az and the blessing of unexpected rain in the desert-always a wonderful omen of blessings from the Divine. The desert is alive and flowering, as the landscape and consciousness are intertwined.
While the open to all Mukti Deeksha webcast was a very brief window of opportunity as I expected, it is my understanding that the weekly webcasts have now been discontinued to be replaced with a two day course in many areas that includes it. I apologize for the previous miscommunication about weekly events.
You can find events near you at http://www.worldonenesscommunity.com .
Again much gratitude to those who dropped everything and went to receive the Mukti Deeksha on such short notice and on faith. Mankind has moved much closer to enlightenment.
Namaste,
DD
www.vedicshamanism.com
Saturday, February 20, 2010
The First USA/Russian Darshan with Kalki Bhagavan
Satyaloka Monastery-Aug 15, 1998:
The previous night, the meditation session with the monks ended early. Acharya Ananda Giri who was conducting the 42 mukti yajna told to us to stay in our quarters and not walk about Satyaloka that night. We could hear music being played through loudspeakers in the distance which was odd as it was normally so quiet there, but we just figured that there was a celebration in the village. We did not go out.
When we arose at dawn, it was quite a surprise. In that secluded place, there was a line of people as far as the eye could see lined up for darshan with Kalki Bhagavan. People were drumming and dancing in the central field. swimming in the lake. There was a marketplace with vendors with Sri Murthis on everything from keychains to handbags. Dance was such a big part of the early process for as we awakened to a truth beyond the 5 senses, we wrote songs and danced with the Antaryamin well into the night. It could not be helped. It was a very joyful, energetic dharma in those early years. Even the suffering, the dark riddle of the Universe, was embraced as one would embrace a guru-as we danced through it.
The monks cooked for all the people who had come from many places for darshan-close to 300,000 in all and the steam was so thick in the kitchen area from the rice cooking you could hardly see your hand in front of your face. Crows were everywhere fighting over bits of rice and guarding piles of coconut shells. The ancient symbolism of the crows was death. It could be a spiritual shamanic death or a physical death. We rejoiced to see the crows as they meant liberation.
Ananda Giriji met with us that morning and prepared us for darshan. He told us to be silent and look into Kalki's (Bhagavan's) eyes and do not even blink as we could only be in his presence a very short time. "Do not waste even a moment by blinking or looking away," he told us. We prayed and were called in for darshan with Bhagavan. Amma did not give darshan there in those days. Bhagavan did not speak then during darshan as he does now, and he rarely opened his eyes. If he did some of the people would just pass out and have to be carried out.
We had been told before we went to Satyaloka by one of the monks that we would reach a state of a christ or a buddha or they would carry our dead bodies out of there. A woman laughed and was asked to leave if she could not take it seriously. We did not know what to expect. There was no going back. Even if anyone wanted to leave the police had come once more and taken our passports.
The monks (dasas) went to the front of the thatch darshan hall with a golden orb on the top to see Bhagavan. They monks were jumping up and down weeping with Bliss and calling out "Kalki! Kalki!". Some collapsed or fainted. Others wept with joy or bawled like babies. Then we stepped forward to get our first glimpse of the physical form of the one they called "The Lord of Enlightenment."
Before that we had been relating the Sri Murthi (an empowered portrait or icon). I do not recall even seeing a photo of Amma until years later. All manner of miracles and supernatural events occurred surrounded that picture. Healings, material blessings, manifestations, miracles. Much later honey began to pour from the hands of a Sri Murthi in California (see Miracle of the Honey on www.vedicshamanism.com). When asked about it, Bhagavan said, “It is a marriage of science and religion. They have been separated for too long,”
Kalki Bhagavan sat in a beautiful carved chair. I had the impression there were eagles on the arms. His eyes were closed. He was not like any human I had ever seen. It shocked me and I jumped. "This cannot be real!" was the thought. He was so empty I though he was dead.
"This is taxidermy- a stuffed person," I thought. But then I saw him move just a bit, and at first doubted my eyes and jumped again. The movement was so shocking and unexpected that another jolt came and I almost fell backwards. I could find no definition for what I was seeing, and all circuits were on overload. I did nothing but stare at him as Ananda Giri had ordered and hung on to the railing.
It was difficult to stare at him-almost painful-like looking at the sun. The mind tilted back and forth. I stared at his closed eyes and was amazed to see that I could see his eyes burning through the lids. It was like fire. I blinked and could still see his eyes through the lids. Suddenly he was a forest, the trees, a leopard, a leopard hunting a mouse, a mouse, a man hunting a leopard, a giraffe, the African continent, the world, my relatives, my loved ones, the people, the crowd the mass. Faster and faster- all that ever was and all that ever will be. He opened His eyes and he was gone yet was still there-in the way you know the fan is there yet the blades are spinning too fast to see.
And I realized that I had seen the formless state of God. Parabrahma. I had thought that Formless meant invisible. It was not that at all. I could find no definition. Love came. My heart broke into a million pieces. Agony, Passion then Bliss. The Universe empty. Everything is there yet there is nothing there at all.
The Russians were screaming "Come to Moscow!" and singing a song in a horrible way-it was a thousand double parked taxicabs blowing their horns. Raniji started screaming and fell. Louder and louder the sounds came until it was a tidal wave. No one could possibly survive. Others, including a few monks, were carried out weeping with bliss or not conscious-perhaps in samadhi.
I staggered out of the darshan hall. We began to bring buckets of water for the people waiting in line, seeking some shred of reality in the labor. It was like going off a high dive. There was no going back. Would I even want to? Nothing would ever be the same- that I knew. For better or worse-there is no difference. The suffering is in the perception. I must only turn around-step aside to see differently. The transformation is in the perception.
Miles of people there were as far as the eye could see. It was a very hot day but no one complained. Some girls who had just seen Kalki Bhagavan were standing in the open area by the dhyana vihar, weeping. One fell into my arms and cried like a child. She wept and wept and wept until we both were soaked. I gave her some kleenex and she cried some more. There was a man crawling about at our feet weeping with bliss, and he was babbling and kissing the dirt.
By sundown there was no visible sign that the people had ever been there, except the mountains of coconut shells stacked up along the path. Even the crows had departed. I felt as if I had been crying for a million years and could find no more pain. I looked for it like a lost ring. It was an empty feeling not without relief.
Later that week as the mukti yajna progressed I entered a state where there is no judgment, as you see that your thoughts are not your thoughts. You see how thoughts are attached to various places and people and are dependent on many factors. They just happen automatically. It is the same with desire.
Later as the state or way of seeing progressed the experience moved to the seeing of the Universe in everything. I was in the restroom tying the drawstring on my pants and suddenly it was bliss to tie the knot. I untied it and tied it several times. When I looked at it, the knot was everything. Much later, maybe hours, someone found me in the stall happily staring at the knot and led me out of there by the arm. To walk in that state is amazing. The ground appeared as everything and nothing at all. I read once of a scientist who learned, or perhaps saw, something about quantum theory and had to wear snowshoes so he would not go through the floor. It was conceivable that that was his state except he cared one way or another what happened-about the outcome of whether he would or would not be absorbed by the ground. The heck with the snowshoes lets meld into the Earth.
When I passed that spot where the man had been weeping with bliss and talking to the dirt the morning of darshan, I experienced what I feel the man was experiencing. In that place I saw God in everything and I fell and began to kiss the grass in the dirt because there was grass in the dirt.
The experience could still be had in that same spot the following year and the year after that for as you walked through that place you entered that state. You saw God in everything. Just as a lake has warm spots and cool spots, Satyaloka has many spots where experiences folks generally only read about can be experienced for ones self. Like gifts from those who walked there before you.
The previous night, the meditation session with the monks ended early. Acharya Ananda Giri who was conducting the 42 mukti yajna told to us to stay in our quarters and not walk about Satyaloka that night. We could hear music being played through loudspeakers in the distance which was odd as it was normally so quiet there, but we just figured that there was a celebration in the village. We did not go out.
When we arose at dawn, it was quite a surprise. In that secluded place, there was a line of people as far as the eye could see lined up for darshan with Kalki Bhagavan. People were drumming and dancing in the central field. swimming in the lake. There was a marketplace with vendors with Sri Murthis on everything from keychains to handbags. Dance was such a big part of the early process for as we awakened to a truth beyond the 5 senses, we wrote songs and danced with the Antaryamin well into the night. It could not be helped. It was a very joyful, energetic dharma in those early years. Even the suffering, the dark riddle of the Universe, was embraced as one would embrace a guru-as we danced through it.
The monks cooked for all the people who had come from many places for darshan-close to 300,000 in all and the steam was so thick in the kitchen area from the rice cooking you could hardly see your hand in front of your face. Crows were everywhere fighting over bits of rice and guarding piles of coconut shells. The ancient symbolism of the crows was death. It could be a spiritual shamanic death or a physical death. We rejoiced to see the crows as they meant liberation.
Ananda Giriji met with us that morning and prepared us for darshan. He told us to be silent and look into Kalki's (Bhagavan's) eyes and do not even blink as we could only be in his presence a very short time. "Do not waste even a moment by blinking or looking away," he told us. We prayed and were called in for darshan with Bhagavan. Amma did not give darshan there in those days. Bhagavan did not speak then during darshan as he does now, and he rarely opened his eyes. If he did some of the people would just pass out and have to be carried out.
We had been told before we went to Satyaloka by one of the monks that we would reach a state of a christ or a buddha or they would carry our dead bodies out of there. A woman laughed and was asked to leave if she could not take it seriously. We did not know what to expect. There was no going back. Even if anyone wanted to leave the police had come once more and taken our passports.
The monks (dasas) went to the front of the thatch darshan hall with a golden orb on the top to see Bhagavan. They monks were jumping up and down weeping with Bliss and calling out "Kalki! Kalki!". Some collapsed or fainted. Others wept with joy or bawled like babies. Then we stepped forward to get our first glimpse of the physical form of the one they called "The Lord of Enlightenment."
Before that we had been relating the Sri Murthi (an empowered portrait or icon). I do not recall even seeing a photo of Amma until years later. All manner of miracles and supernatural events occurred surrounded that picture. Healings, material blessings, manifestations, miracles. Much later honey began to pour from the hands of a Sri Murthi in California (see Miracle of the Honey on www.vedicshamanism.com). When asked about it, Bhagavan said, “It is a marriage of science and religion. They have been separated for too long,”
Kalki Bhagavan sat in a beautiful carved chair. I had the impression there were eagles on the arms. His eyes were closed. He was not like any human I had ever seen. It shocked me and I jumped. "This cannot be real!" was the thought. He was so empty I though he was dead.
"This is taxidermy- a stuffed person," I thought. But then I saw him move just a bit, and at first doubted my eyes and jumped again. The movement was so shocking and unexpected that another jolt came and I almost fell backwards. I could find no definition for what I was seeing, and all circuits were on overload. I did nothing but stare at him as Ananda Giri had ordered and hung on to the railing.
It was difficult to stare at him-almost painful-like looking at the sun. The mind tilted back and forth. I stared at his closed eyes and was amazed to see that I could see his eyes burning through the lids. It was like fire. I blinked and could still see his eyes through the lids. Suddenly he was a forest, the trees, a leopard, a leopard hunting a mouse, a mouse, a man hunting a leopard, a giraffe, the African continent, the world, my relatives, my loved ones, the people, the crowd the mass. Faster and faster- all that ever was and all that ever will be. He opened His eyes and he was gone yet was still there-in the way you know the fan is there yet the blades are spinning too fast to see.
And I realized that I had seen the formless state of God. Parabrahma. I had thought that Formless meant invisible. It was not that at all. I could find no definition. Love came. My heart broke into a million pieces. Agony, Passion then Bliss. The Universe empty. Everything is there yet there is nothing there at all.
The Russians were screaming "Come to Moscow!" and singing a song in a horrible way-it was a thousand double parked taxicabs blowing their horns. Raniji started screaming and fell. Louder and louder the sounds came until it was a tidal wave. No one could possibly survive. Others, including a few monks, were carried out weeping with bliss or not conscious-perhaps in samadhi.
I staggered out of the darshan hall. We began to bring buckets of water for the people waiting in line, seeking some shred of reality in the labor. It was like going off a high dive. There was no going back. Would I even want to? Nothing would ever be the same- that I knew. For better or worse-there is no difference. The suffering is in the perception. I must only turn around-step aside to see differently. The transformation is in the perception.
Miles of people there were as far as the eye could see. It was a very hot day but no one complained. Some girls who had just seen Kalki Bhagavan were standing in the open area by the dhyana vihar, weeping. One fell into my arms and cried like a child. She wept and wept and wept until we both were soaked. I gave her some kleenex and she cried some more. There was a man crawling about at our feet weeping with bliss, and he was babbling and kissing the dirt.
By sundown there was no visible sign that the people had ever been there, except the mountains of coconut shells stacked up along the path. Even the crows had departed. I felt as if I had been crying for a million years and could find no more pain. I looked for it like a lost ring. It was an empty feeling not without relief.
Later that week as the mukti yajna progressed I entered a state where there is no judgment, as you see that your thoughts are not your thoughts. You see how thoughts are attached to various places and people and are dependent on many factors. They just happen automatically. It is the same with desire.
Later as the state or way of seeing progressed the experience moved to the seeing of the Universe in everything. I was in the restroom tying the drawstring on my pants and suddenly it was bliss to tie the knot. I untied it and tied it several times. When I looked at it, the knot was everything. Much later, maybe hours, someone found me in the stall happily staring at the knot and led me out of there by the arm. To walk in that state is amazing. The ground appeared as everything and nothing at all. I read once of a scientist who learned, or perhaps saw, something about quantum theory and had to wear snowshoes so he would not go through the floor. It was conceivable that that was his state except he cared one way or another what happened-about the outcome of whether he would or would not be absorbed by the ground. The heck with the snowshoes lets meld into the Earth.
When I passed that spot where the man had been weeping with bliss and talking to the dirt the morning of darshan, I experienced what I feel the man was experiencing. In that place I saw God in everything and I fell and began to kiss the grass in the dirt because there was grass in the dirt.
The experience could still be had in that same spot the following year and the year after that for as you walked through that place you entered that state. You saw God in everything. Just as a lake has warm spots and cool spots, Satyaloka has many spots where experiences folks generally only read about can be experienced for ones self. Like gifts from those who walked there before you.
Tuesday, February 16, 2010
Vedic Shamanism Newsletter
Vedic Shamanism Newsletter:
Book Release: Dr. Sankara Bhagavadpada (Paramacharya) was among the first Acharyas of Bhagavan. To order his book, "Sri Ramana Maharshi's Moksha" visit: http://www.yogiimpressions.com/author-profile/Sankara-Bhagavadpada.aspx
For Vedic Astrology with Dr. Sankara Bhagavadpada visit http://www.indiayogi.com/consultation/vedic/
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From the Moksha Yajna-(Retreat For Moksha conducted for those over 55 or the terminally ill)
"While you could write volumes on Moksha very simply it can be understood as liberation from the cycle of births and deaths, The one who attains moksha takes no more births and has no more deaths. He or she merges with Supreme Light."
On aging gracefully: "it is the natural rose that is loved and respected, the one that blooms, and fades. Not the artificial rose."
More on Moksha http://www.vedicshamanism.com/index7.html
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On Feb 13 Stellar Light Applications offered a once in a lifetime opportunity to bask in the light of Sirius and experience the benefits of the concentrating of this light spectrum not available on earth. To find out more about the star Sirius, click on this link http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sirius. To keep informed of other events visit: http://www.starlightuses.com
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From cancer to arthritis to acne-discover the healing benefits of honey and cinnamon. http://www.filipinovegetarianrecipe.com/health_compilation/honey_cinnamon.htm
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Healing Diksha
Is the healing diksha offered by the original teachers of Sri Bhagavan the same as the Oneness Blessing? Visit "Awakening the Antaryamin-Moving From Belief to Discovery" http://skyboom1.tripod.com/index17.html
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Vayanamasi-Mantra For Miracles-
Already stories of miracles from a mantra Siva Baba recently revealed have been coming in. Visit: http://blogs.sivababa.org/index.php/2010/01/. For more info.
It has a powerful resonance and is extremely effective..
The day I learned about Vayanamasi, I was chanting for some others. One man was out of work . His employment was running out the following week. I chanted Vayanamasi 108 times only. Within 20 minutes the man's phone rang with very good job offer that he did not apply for.
There will be 2 Day Interactive Workshop with Siva Baba in New York City February 27 and 28.
This is sure to be a life impacting workshop. To register visit http://www.sivababa.org/Shopping/Shopevents/Events_Baba85462Seminar
For more on the manta Vayayamasi google: Va Ya Na Ma Si
Utube video on Love and Enlightenment http://www.youtube.com/user/DattatreyaSivaBaba?ob=1
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Sri Raniji will be conducting a workshop in Chicago March 12-14. For More Info Visit http://chicagomarch2010.eventbrite.com/?ref=eivte&invite=Mjc1NTE1L2RoYXJtYUB2ZWRpY3NoYW1hbmlzbS5jb20vMA%3D%3D%0A&utm_source=eb_email&utm_medium=email&utm_campaign=invite
For chanting workshops visit http://www.livinginawareness.org
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Humaworm http://www.humaworm.com . Parasites can have quite an impact on consciousness and even food desires. Some who have cyclic depression are sensitive to nerve toxins that parasites give off. When the parasites are cleared up the depression often lifts.
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Current estimates by quantum physicists is that the Universe is 70% dark energy, 25% dark matter and only 5% of the Universe is visible matter. Dark matter does not emit or reflect electromagnetic radiation.
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Beyond Love and Hate-
Oneness of Ichikuro and Jitsunosuke and the Tunnel of Love http://www.buddhanet.net/nippon/nippon_partIII.html (Scroll to "Beyond Love and Hate").
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Tibetan Fountain of Youth- http://fivetibetanrites.com/?hop=billsattic
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Self Initiation
On August 3, 1922, Nirmala Sundari broke the Hindu religious tradition by initiating herself as Anandamayi Ma: an enlightened being and universal mother. http://eastern-philosophy.suite101.com/article.cfm/profile_of_a_saint
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When the honeybee came
I saw the scent of Flowers run
Oh what miracles!
Where the heart went
I saw the brain run
When the god came
I saw the temple run.
....Allama Prabhu
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Namaste,
Dharma Dharini
www.vedicshamanism.com
To subscribe email dharma @vedicshamanism.com with Subscribe in the subject
Book Release: Dr. Sankara Bhagavadpada (Paramacharya) was among the first Acharyas of Bhagavan. To order his book, "Sri Ramana Maharshi's Moksha" visit: http://www.yogiimpressions.com/author-profile/Sankara-Bhagavadpada.aspx
For Vedic Astrology with Dr. Sankara Bhagavadpada visit http://www.indiayogi.com/consultation/vedic/
*********
From the Moksha Yajna-(Retreat For Moksha conducted for those over 55 or the terminally ill)
"While you could write volumes on Moksha very simply it can be understood as liberation from the cycle of births and deaths, The one who attains moksha takes no more births and has no more deaths. He or she merges with Supreme Light."
On aging gracefully: "it is the natural rose that is loved and respected, the one that blooms, and fades. Not the artificial rose."
More on Moksha http://www.vedicshamanism.com/index7.html
*********
On Feb 13 Stellar Light Applications offered a once in a lifetime opportunity to bask in the light of Sirius and experience the benefits of the concentrating of this light spectrum not available on earth. To find out more about the star Sirius, click on this link http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Sirius. To keep informed of other events visit: http://www.starlightuses.com
*********
From cancer to arthritis to acne-discover the healing benefits of honey and cinnamon. http://www.filipinovegetarianrecipe.com/health_compilation/honey_cinnamon.htm
**********
Healing Diksha
Is the healing diksha offered by the original teachers of Sri Bhagavan the same as the Oneness Blessing? Visit "Awakening the Antaryamin-Moving From Belief to Discovery" http://skyboom1.tripod.com/index17.html
****************
Vayanamasi-Mantra For Miracles-
Already stories of miracles from a mantra Siva Baba recently revealed have been coming in. Visit: http://blogs.sivababa.org/index.php/2010/01/. For more info.
It has a powerful resonance and is extremely effective..
The day I learned about Vayanamasi, I was chanting for some others. One man was out of work . His employment was running out the following week. I chanted Vayanamasi 108 times only. Within 20 minutes the man's phone rang with very good job offer that he did not apply for.
There will be 2 Day Interactive Workshop with Siva Baba in New York City February 27 and 28.
This is sure to be a life impacting workshop. To register visit http://www.sivababa.org/Shopping/Shopevents/Events_Baba85462Seminar
For more on the manta Vayayamasi google: Va Ya Na Ma Si
Utube video on Love and Enlightenment http://www.youtube.com/user/DattatreyaSivaBaba?ob=1
*********
Sri Raniji will be conducting a workshop in Chicago March 12-14. For More Info Visit http://chicagomarch2010.eventbrite.com/?ref=eivte&invite=Mjc1NTE1L2RoYXJtYUB2ZWRpY3NoYW1hbmlzbS5jb20vMA%3D%3D%0A&utm_source=eb_email&utm_medium=email&utm_campaign=invite
For chanting workshops visit http://www.livinginawareness.org
**********
Humaworm http://www.humaworm.com . Parasites can have quite an impact on consciousness and even food desires. Some who have cyclic depression are sensitive to nerve toxins that parasites give off. When the parasites are cleared up the depression often lifts.
***********
Current estimates by quantum physicists is that the Universe is 70% dark energy, 25% dark matter and only 5% of the Universe is visible matter. Dark matter does not emit or reflect electromagnetic radiation.
***************
Beyond Love and Hate-
Oneness of Ichikuro and Jitsunosuke and the Tunnel of Love http://www.buddhanet.net/nippon/nippon_partIII.html (Scroll to "Beyond Love and Hate").
*************
Tibetan Fountain of Youth- http://fivetibetanrites.com/?hop=billsattic
************
Self Initiation
On August 3, 1922, Nirmala Sundari broke the Hindu religious tradition by initiating herself as Anandamayi Ma: an enlightened being and universal mother. http://eastern-philosophy.suite101.com/article.cfm/profile_of_a_saint
***************
When the honeybee came
I saw the scent of Flowers run
Oh what miracles!
Where the heart went
I saw the brain run
When the god came
I saw the temple run.
....Allama Prabhu
************
Namaste,
Dharma Dharini
www.vedicshamanism.com
To subscribe email dharma @vedicshamanism.com with Subscribe in the subject
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